This will be a site for my idle ramblings. I started using the wtfo acronym many years ago in the service so when choosing internet monikers a long time ago, I incorporated it into the first domain name I registered.
I will readily admit that I have not and do not give thanks often enough for the good things in my life. While I never want to be thankful in the manner of those countless rote blessings I heard at the table before each meal as a child, I believe I should give thanks more often than on this annual holiday. Oh well, perhaps that will be a good resolution for the forthcoming new year.
I am thankful for:
Reasonably good health Respectful friends, especially one budding new friend Knowing that within me the embers of affection and passion continue to glow, patiently awaiting the chance to burn brightly again A caring family Life's lessons that have been bestowed upon me throughout the years A job that allows me to prepare for a secure retirement
I rarely take the opportunity to ponder things anymore, I suppose I feel too busy or too tired to think about them. It is a shortcoming I hope to overcome.
Tonight I had such an opportunity while waiting to meet a new friend. Sitting in my truck as I listened to A Prarie Home Companion on NPR I noticed a bright star in the western sky. Immediately l scanned the sky to see if it was indeed the first visible star and found no other star save it.
I tried yet failed to remember when last I had wished upon this star. I only briefly wondered what I might wish for before I began to try and remember what this star was called. I believe it was actually not a star at all but the planet Venus and called the Evening Star, which I confirmed later at The Evening and Morning star.
I continued to watch this star as I moved to the front of the restaurant to meet my friend to who I asked, “What do they call that star?”. She replied, “The Wishing Star” and recited that old faithful nursery rhyme, Starlight…
I have read some of her works, and truly loved the movie "Henry & June". I read this quote by Anais today and felt compelled to share it.
I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.
- Anais Nin Are there any women like this still available?
I should be ashamed at myself. For years I have felt fearful of publicly commenting negatively about this administrations lies, corruption and general abandonment of basic civil liberties out of fear of reprisal. The follow excerpt from the failed $700 billion bailout proposed by the Bush administration, "Decisions by the Secretary pursuant to the authority of this Act are non-reviewable and committed to agency discretion, and may not be reviewed by any court of law or any administrative agency" is the straw that broke this camel's back.
Any elected congressional member who voted for this bill should be arrested and tried as a traitor. I personally believe that "tarring and feathering" is not a cruel and unusual punishment for such perpetrators of greed, deceit and dishonesty. If only they would import their snake oil from China, we would have a chance of helping our cumulative gene pool, as I am sure that whatever comes from China will eventually poison or poll…
I believe that what we seek, is not necessarily what we need, or perhaps even want. While chasing the pot at the end of the rainbow fate is apt to trip you up in the middle of the field with joy instead of riches.
So run free my friends and look closely should you trip, there may be a treasure there for the taking.
Your result for The Color Code Test...Color Code: BLUE: The Social Butterfly Here is the basics: For a more in depth analysis, I suggest you look up the Color Code, and take a more intensive test. BLUE MOTIVE: Intimacy BLUE NEEDS: To be good (morally), To be understood, To be appreciated, Acceptance. BLUE WANTS: To reveal insecurities, Quality, Autonomy, Secuirity. SUMMARY: Blues are motivated by altruism. They love to do nice things for others. they look for opportunites to give up something in order to bring another person happiness. selflessness rather than selfishness is their guiding philosophy. Blues seek intimacy. They want to be loved and to love. A true blue will sacrifice a successful career to improve an important relationship. Blues crave being understood. They are gratified when they are listened to, when they feel understood and appreciated. Blues may have thier hearts broken more than most people, but they also spend much more time in love. Blues are directed by a strong mo…
My week is starting well. I received an inspirational card this morning. It is alway nice to know that friends can be supportive. They say you can never have too many friends, and I suppose that is true, but selfish reasons I suppose I have always kept my list of friends short. Hopefully that is an aspect of my life I can change before it is too late.
Monsoon season has finally arrived here in the Valley of the Sun. The northern skies have been brightly illuminated the past several nights with beautiful lightening. If it would make it farther South with a few drops of rain left all would be well.
I don't know who to give credit for this quote, "Don't marry the person you think you can live with; marry only the individual you think you can't live without." I came across it while surfing the net. As I find myself in the midst of the end of another long term relationship, it is a poignant thought.
I was chatting with a very special friend this morning, who just happens to be a key figure in one of my previous failed relationships. We have only recently become networked again here on this huge information highway. Hopefully we can keep the friendship alive as we continue along life's path.
I am going on record!! I have a new favorite tune. I have had several over these many years, but this is one I find particular up beat and intriguing at the moment. I hope to enjoy music once again with my upcoming freedom. I have missed the enjoyment of good vibes for far too long.
Quite relaxing actually. It started with a blissful calm and quiet as I leisurely drank my morning cup of coffee. Have I shared with you how much I hate beginning my day rushing, or having some distracting noise like a vacuum cleaner, washer, dryer or leaf blower going during my quiet time?
After I finished coffee, I prepared oatmeal for breakfast. One of several positive aspects to having my Father living with me now is a much improved semi-annual cholesterol test result. I attribute it mostly to the morning oatmeal, but I'm sure the fact that we rarely eat out contributes as well.
After breakfast I headed out on my morning bike ride. I was not yet 8 AM and the temperature here was already rapidly approaching 90 degrees. I keep promising myself I should ride then have coffee, did I mention how much I like my coffee first thing? There were not many people out, but it is always dead here at this time of year. Everyone that can has fled North to a cooler climate.
In my thirties and forties I worked full time, often in excess of 40 hours a week. I often attended college classes two nights a week. I was a parent to two children and a husband to my wife. I still managed with all that to play an occasional game of golf and do other things that were strictly personally entertaining or rewarding.
I often thought that I would still be a young man when my children were grown and I would have plenty of time to persue my personal interests, but I feel everyday like there is not enough time to do the things I want to do. I guess a lot of it is that I just don't have the energy, physically or mentally to do things the way I did when I was younger. Oh well, there is certainly truth to that old saying, "Use it or lose it."
I came to a startling realization recently. Well not really all that startling, but it was a realization. My journey across life's tapestry is over half complete, assuming I don't live some extraordinary length of time.
I stopped a moment and reflected on times past... the good ones as well as those not so good. I certainly did not dwell or linger on the latter of those times. Now I try to concentrate on this times ahead, and hope I have many more good times ahead.